Take my hand and we'll make it I swear

Okay I know it's been awhile, but I had to let you guys know about this....


I'M GOING TO HAVE A BABY!!!

Holy crap isn't that awesome!! I found out on Friday, I went to the doctor today to confirm it...I'm only about five weeks. It's due date is October 30th...(LOL it could be a Halloween baby!) I'm super excited, and I really, really, really need your prayers right now! Pray that I'll have a happy, healthy baby .....it's so early and the chances of a miscarriage are pretty good...and I don't know how well I'd deal with that...I mean if it isn't suppose to happen it isn't, but I want a chance to see this little person who I'm in love with and they don't even have a formable figure yet.

So remember me and Stephen in your prayers, that we'll he healthy and the baby will be safe, and that we'll be good parents and do the right things...please pray and remember us! Thanks for listening! WISH ME LUCK!

I'm recently obsessed more with myspace, so all you guys should go on there!
http://www.myspace.com

I update my blog there more often

well I'm bored today but I guess it's welcoming. Tuesday and Thursdays are going to be busy, busy days for me. Somehow I managed to cram 18 hours of classes into three days a week, which gives me all weekend to work, assuming that I get a job that is.
I don't know where to work or where to apply. I haven't gotten my check yet and I haven't found an apartment yet. The idea is to get all my shit together and on Friday make things happen. things like work and finally moving out and living on my own, which is somewhat exciting but I dread it at the same time.......
I guess I need to get off here....there's nobody left in the lab. I've got a long time to wait for class to begin at five though...I hate late classes.

I don't really have much to write about right now....I'm kinda just doing my own thing and trying to figure things out in my head, but once I do I'll be sure and let you know.
Anyway, I've been doing much of nothing lately...except trying to get school stuff worked out. I want my money, I want an apartment of my own to go home too, I miss it. Love Daddy to death but I really can't live here much longer I really really need my own space.
I got a new cellphone but nobody ever calls me. Oh well.
I really dont' have much to update about, but hey I made an entry!

today was okay I guess. I got to see Sarah which was really awesome. I've missed her a bunch cause she's a really good friend and is so easy to talk too. I met her at her house in roan mtn, she had Debora's baby boy with her, he's a darling! He's got big blue eyes and such a great personality, and he's a very, VERY good baby. We took him to eat with us and he was just so good. I took her back to her apartment after that, we didn't hang out very much but we got to talk a lot and that was cool. She told me all her good stories about Costa Rica and we just caught up. IT was really great to hang out with her though, I've really missed her since she's been gone. She didn't ask much about the breakup, just about the good stuff, like how me and Stephen met and how he proposed.....it was nice to think about the good stuff and not the sad, hurtful stuff.
He had a bad day at work, and now I think he's angry at me and I don't know why. I guess I should just start getting used to that it happens very frequently lately....I don't know why. I miss him though....I miss being 'together' and as much as I hope and pray and try I really don't know that he's going to love me the way that he used too again. I wish more than anything I could get on here and just write EVERYTHING IS OKAY in 500 font and display it allover the place. But I can't...sadly enough. I'll just keep trying, and keep loving him and hoping that he decides differently and not give up on it until he tells me too, that's really all I can do, actually.

You will perish of fits. Repeat this to yourself:
"Things can work out even if I don't get
my way. Things can work out even...."


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I guess this is pretty accurate....

Well I just thought the past few days were a good sign. Oh well.....I just wish everything would work out. I guess It's just wishful thinking...
App is in Chattanooga tonight....Ohhh I hope they win. It's been a bad night I hope that at least they can make me feel better....

I'm just chilling out again. School is finally over! I'm excited about that. I'm not as excited about my grades as I hoped to be though. I only made one A in Mass Media and Society, but if you read what she put as the requirements for an A you would be proud of me. I made mostly B's, and a C in Bio, but that was nice I thought I would be struggling to make a D. LOL I'm so stupid when it comes to science, and it doesn't help that I have a major case of senioritis. I just really wish they would let me work on my schedule. Dr. Pennel can't get it together and send over those subs, so I really need to reigster for the classes that I need and take my graduation audit over there myself and letting them fix it.
I actually got a little bit of Christmas shopping finished today. I'm hoping to go tomorrow though and finish it up, there's so much more to do. I'm excited though, I love buying gifts almost as much as I love watching people open them.
Stephen and I certainly have had a good time. We're not really 'together', but we've hung out a lot and it's been great. I miss him, and love him soo so so much, and hate not being able to tell him that all of the time. But I feel like we're trying to work through things. I guess it is kind of out of my hands, but it feels like we're working on things.
Christmas is close....only nine days away. I wonder what I'll be doing in nine days, where I"ll be, who I'll be with. I know who I want it to be at least......
But right now there's no water...me, Kayla and Brit are just kinda hanging out. Dodgeball is on though, that is cool. I certainly would like to take a shower though.
Write back, miss ya.

I guess I'm going to flunk a bio exam in about thirty minutes...*sigh* I'm so worried about it, I have been dreading it all semester. He didn't give us a study guide or anything.
I hate my life.

I miss my Stephen.......

this is so tough to deal with. Especially right before Christmas, there's commercials and people together everywhere. and i'm all alone. I feel so retarded, picking up magazines off the shelves to read about all the celebrities that are breaking up because somehow that makes me feel better.
we stayed in Boone together last night and had a blast, just hanging out. It sucked so badly to wake up this morning though to realize he was going to leave and I didn't know when or if he was ever coming back.
it just sucks, and it hurts. and if the panthers lose today it will hurt even more. i just dont know what to do with myself anymore....i miss him the second he leaves.....what kind of a life is this?

I just have to rub it in....

APPS CLAIM CONFERENCE TITLE, PLAYOFF BID, OLD MOUNTAIN JUG WITH 35-7 WIN OVER ARCHRIVAL WESTERN CAROLINA

Hey there!
i've got a hell of a lot of time to kill, so I'm gonna try and kill it rambling in my livejournal since I haven't updated in a few days.
I was trying to look at my LJ to see where I was a year ago from today....this is the closest entry to today that I could find...

Why?? [17 Nov 2004|12:16pm]
Why would you want your screensaver to be a snowy cottage? God I hate winter!

Heh heh.....not very insightful I suppose. But anyway...what have I been into the past few days? well I got to spend most of Friday with my Dad and only my Dad, which was awesome. Rose wasn't there for most of the day, and when she was there he went to her house and I didn't have to see her which was great. It was so nice to see daddy all by himself. *sigh* Though that doesn't happen very often.
On Saturday me and Stephen went down to his house and *started* doing our laundry. It was rough...we stayed there until about two, and he's already moved his television and everything into his new house so we pretty much just talked and played Scattergories. Shane came by at one point and brought a shitload of his friends, tracking us down to buy them beer. After many promises that they wouldn't drink it until they got home we agreed and went to Food Lion. I also saw my friend Sarah Ruppard in Food Lion when me and Stephen had went in there earlier for drinks and fudge. She said her and her husband Randall were living in Blowing Rock now, and that they had these landlords that left for the winter and wanted me and stephen and Jess and Greg to come up there and stay with her some this holiday season. That sounds pretty cool. I'm excited :) It was nice to see her too, and to see that she is doing good in married life.
But anyway, Sunday we went back to Daddy's house, started some more laundry and helped clean. We moved a shitload of stuff for him and cleaned up his apartment significantly. I cleaned the bathroom (the shower was a mess) and Stephen was brave enough to clean out from under Kayla's bed. I told her when we got to Daddy's she needed to give him a big hug because he did a lot of work for her. It was a disaster area, to say the least....
yesterday was Halloweenn....creeepy. LOL. No we just pretty much went back to Daddy's with Eddie to take a washer and dryer to Daddy that he bought off Stephen's boss. Eddie took us to Papa's to eat and we saw Jessica Biggs there, the girl that used to date Patrick. We went from there to Stephs, and from there to Mamaws, and ended up back in Boone around eleven. LOL. So it's been very much a family week thus far, and will probably stay that way. We need to go see Teresa tomorrow because it's her birthday, and we're goign to have to help Daddy finish moving and everything, so we'll probably spend a lot of time with all of them. Also, Stephen locked the garage opener in the garage the other night, so we can't get back in there just yet. It's a pain in the ass because half of our clothes and my backpack are all in there and we can't get into it until today, but I HAVE to have my backpack today because I have a HUGE bio test on thursday...the last test before the final actually, so I NEED to do good on it. That will explain why I'm going to be at school ALL DAY today. I have a review session at 6 until 8, and THEN and finally THEN I'll get to go home sweet home. *sigh* It seems like forever long.
well cats and kids, that's not very interesting but it'll do for now!

So we finally did it! We set a date in stone. We are going to get married on Saturday, May 20, 2006. We still haven't picked the church yet, but I'm hoping that we can look at some this weekend. I really want to get all this done before exams are over because when Emily comes up for Christmas break I want to try and look at some dresses with her and Kayla. The wedding page is fixed, http://www.theknot.com/ourwedding/StacyKing&StephenDuncan and as soon as I get the church figured out I'll update it with all that information, so you can use that to keep up with our planning. What am I talking about you know I'll be posting on livejournal like crazy everytime we pick something.
we've been looking at some honeymoon destinations. We're looking at either the Big Island in Hawaii, St. Lucia, the capital of the Bahamas, or Jamaica, where Teresa goes every year and says it is beautiful. We haven't decided yet, we're getting some different price quotes from some different people, but THAT is VERY exciting!
I got my ring sized this weekend too. It was amazing, it was a size 7, he got that because my class ring that I usually wear on my right hand is a 7.5 and it is a little too big for my left hand, but I actually had to get the ring down to a size 6 in order for it to fit right. It looks so much better though and now I don't have to worry about it falling off my finger.
It's so freaking cold outside! I can't stand it....my hands were all red when I walked across campus. It sucks, and I have to do it again after Bio.
I register for classes soon, and advising is tomorrow. *sigh* It's just a lot to do, I'm not looking forward to the headache!
Well cats and kids I'd better run, but save that date! It's only 207 days away!

Nobody ever said anything about my layout! It took me forever don't you like it, anybody???

I'm watching "The Good Girl.." I haven't seen it in forever, its kinda funny to hear Jennifer Aniston attempt a southern hick accent. It's funny though, if you haven't seen it. It can be depressing, and probably is if you take it seriously...it just reminds me of somebody in my family...her husband and *cough* brad *cough*....well at least Emily will get that. I'm telling you it's Stephanie's past life on the big screen, LOL~! That was mean, I shouldn't have said that.
I had a really bad dream about Shane this morning after Stephen left, and I woke up in tears. I haven't even been able to talk to anyone about it though beacuse it bothered me so much. Not even Mom. Not like me and Stephen got to talk tonight. He got home, watched some of the Boone Town Council meeting with me (which lasted THREE FREAKING HOURS) and went to bed at about eight. *sigh* I know he's tried, I really wish I knew that he liked his job. I know that he likes the money, but I just don't know if he likes the job. He's good at it, damn good at it. I just don't know if its really what he wants to do, or if he just says it is because the money is excellent. I wish he could be happy at work, because then he would be happier in the overall. I know I complained about him earlier....I just don't know what's wrong. I'm afraid he's unhappy, and dont' know how to change that. He's always busy, always...and his boss is just an alcoholic asswhole that won't stay off Stephen's case. *sigh* I don't know what to do about that situation...
I've had so much homework to do lately...I've been running around like crazy for the past few days, and I"m sick of typing from it so I'm just going to lay on the couch and watch this movie until I fall asleep.
Watch the movie, if you haven't seen it. It's good!

I'm so frustrated right now, in case you couldn't tell. I've been soo freaking busy today getting that midterm done. I proof read and changed them both three times, and that was a pain in the ass. I did find something really cool though that I wanted to share with you guys. I wish I would have known about this earlier....

http://www.easybib.com/

It's a website that will make a bibliography for you! It's awesome, it's MLA format and all you do is put in the author and title and all that good info and it puts it all together for you, alphabetizes it, and you can download it to MS word and print it out. How amazing is that...they should advertise that on US Highways or something....It would have saved me a shitload of headaches throughout the years.
But obviously, that's not why I'm frustrated.
I'm frustrated because I got out of class early (like thirty minutes ago...) and asked Stephen to come get me. Well he's still not here, and he still hasn't called. He was all short and hateful with me on the phone and now I'm still sitting here in damn Walker hall waiting to go, starving! I'm so mad right now...it would have been very different if he would have been nice about it. I know his job is frustrating but its really getting under my skin that he never answers the phone, and when he does he's almost always so short with me I feel the need to apologize
he's here

Hello again. I'm just waiting for Print Newswriting to start so i'm killing some time in the wonderful Walker Mac lab because all the good computers are taken. i hate these things...but they are what we use in the newspaper room so I'm slowly learning, but once a week isn't enough to learn exactly how to use these things, they're still annoying with their one button mouses....what a pain.
I changed my major officially to journalism, and got assigned Pennel as an advisor. Advising begins next week and I'm not looking forward to anybody seeing how badly I did last semester. This semester may redeem me though. I did REALLY bad, but still somehow managed to get out of it with a 2.7, not a terrible hit to my GPa, I heard some guy talking to someone in the comm department about advising and he told them that he had to have a 2.0 to transfer and he couldn't do it with a 1.999 something....LOL so that made me happy...maybe this semester I can redeem myself. I think I did really well on my Comm law exam today, and I think I did okay on my midterm for mass comm activity, but that's not even for a grade, it's just an S or NS, so it doesn't really matter. I'm not doing too well in Bio but I'm doing a lot better than I was at this point in Geology last year so I can't really complain, as long as I make a D I'll be happy that I passed...
I think that I want to go to Real Estate school....stephen and I had a brochure sent to us yesterday from the JY monk school that holds some courses in Boone, and we hope to sign up for them soon. I think that'll be cool...not exactly what i'm majoring in but hey, I think it'll be fun and I think I can make some money and that's what matters to me.
We're going to drive an Escalade on Saturday.....I'll update you on that...I dunno if we can afford gas for it but we are getting gas cards from a friend of Stephen's to test drive

I got an email today from my friend Sarah who is in Costa Rica working on some missonary work. Here's something interesting she said:
We met a guy at the beach named Eduardo Miguel who pinches Ashley every single day, but never said a word of "hello" or "how are you" to us. Ashley and I thought it was so weird, and we always laughed about it and couldn't believe it, because we didn't understand why he would just walk up and pinch her for no reason. We finally had a real conversation with him at a friend's house the other day, and he told us that in Panama, where he's from, it means you think someone is good-looking. So when he pinches Ashley everyday, he's telling her he thinks she's hot. Isn't that a weird custom? At least now we know he's not crazy...

I just thought that would be interesting. She's there until November. I haven't seen her in about a year, but she's excited about coming home so we can finally get together and she can finally meet my finace. :) I'm excited about that. I heard from her too that her sister recently had a baby boy, so I'd like to see him and at least see what his name is! Sarah seems pretty wrapped up in what she's doing which is excellent...she's done missionary work all over the place, Costa Rica, Mexico, China....she's spent the past few semesters all over the place and I'm really happy for her, so keep her in your prayers.
We spent Daddy's birthday at Julie's tonight. It was really fun, though Teresa wasn't there and I'd like to see her and Keri-Anne and Kelley sometime. I'd like for the entire family to be together sometime. Tom was his usual self and didn't get along with Grandma, and Stephen says the Lasagna was nowhere near as good as mine *I dont' like to brag (whatever...) but I can make some DAMN good Lasagna* It's really cool too to introduce him as my finace, show off my ring and tell them I'm getting married. My family is really supportive which is awesome. The only person who has given me the whole "wait till you finish school" is Mamaw....and I don't know where she has been to know that I've been in school for the past three years and by the time I get married I'll lack one class before I graduate so I will have the degree in Aug if I take summer classes but by next December at the latest....So really, they can't throw that in my face because I'm basically DONE already....Everybody seems shocked when I tell them that, its seemed like a long haul for me though.
Damn I'm tired...we have to go to Wilksboro tomorrow morning so we're going to bed now. Cya!

So here's the latest lj update....what do you think of my new look? This one I"ll admit took awhile...but I think that it looks really pretty!
There's not much to banter about today....I finally took a pic of my ring but it was difficult because it's hard to take a pic of...it's too sparkly and you can't really see it. I'll try to take a better one later, but here's the one that I have right now...at least you can kinda see what it looks like, LOL
( My engagement ring! )
Well as I said there's not much to talk about today, so I'm gonna hop off here...
It's Black Saturday! We're thinking about going to the game, but who knows what we'll get into today. No telling. :) But anyway I'm gonna run, I"ll talk atcha lata!